The day of my Marriage

Last night,I could not sleep till 2am and just wrote a poem.I dont know what made me do so..I just did it-


I sit in front of a mirror
I can see in myself a tinch of fear..
A fear of getting married to a stranger
It was just four days back
I was enjoying my college days
with no thought of my marriage,in just four days.
I had no fear of this day,
This day-the day of my marriage.

In all these four days,all this was done in haste,
beacause my aai feels her death is near,
and that I love her so much,
I could not let her dreams shatter..
The dream -of seeing me getting married!

I sit in front of a mirror
I can see in myself a tinch of fear..


I retrospect,thinking about my friends,
my school days,my college days,
my first ever boyfriend,
my one and only one crush,whom
I could not disclose my feelings to..
and I think about everything,for perhaps the last time,
for I know the life ahead is tiresome.


I introspect-thinking about the pandit
who foretold about my early marriage.
The pandit has its words,today m just 24!
Is this all my life had in store for me?
For a moment,the lines-"Give me another chance,
I wanna grow up oce again"strike my mind,
but I pause..
These lines hurt me more .


For now,I sit in the bedroom of my spouse,
the stranger I have been married to
I could feel in myself the tinch of fear.

I could hear the footsteps of somebody coming in
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes
I had no idea what will happen the next moment
With my closed eyes,I could see somebody smiling at me
I did not make an expression,I did not make a move,
afterall he was a stranger to me.

The next moment,I felt moist imprints,
of his lips on my chicks-his rosy lips.
I felt they were known to me,
I could feel his his aroma-they too were familiar to me.
In utter shockness,my face made an expression,my eyebrows went up.
I could feel him smiling more than before-No,he is not a stranger,
he's somebody I know


I opened my eyes,I saw those chins-very familiar to me,
Those rosy lips,those puggy nose on his fair face,
and finally those magnificient eyes,
that made me fall for him..
just at the tender age of 17!!
He was my crush-the one I couldn't disclose my feelings to.


I smiled at him,he laughed at me,
I had no idea,Life had so much in store for me,
I pause for a while,
thinking of it as a mere dream..


I sit in front of him,
with yet a fear of it,being a dream ..